Here I Am: Living

This week already has been insane. It’s weeks like this where I start to wonder why I’m here. It’s been rough, long & every day is more tiring. I start to wonder- like most people do- what am I doing with my life? And how did I get here?! 

As a young woman in this century, I have yet to decide my “life career” or whatever you wanna call it. Im still juggling 2 jobs that mostly are temporary. How do I move forward? I even have this sudden urge to audition for the next season of “The Voice”. I used to sing & I wonder if auditioning would change ,y life. Even if I didn’t win or even get a chair to turn, it would do something, wouldn’t it? Maybe I’m crazy. Or maybe I’m just searching for somewhere to feel I belong. The only place I always feel like I belong- besides home- is at Disneyland. I used to think I could go work there but then the magic would be gone. Can’t ruin that! 

I guess the conclusion I always reach is to keep doing what I’m doing. Keep seeing my friends, loving my family & working. Also, I remember that love will find me. THAT will be when I feel right. It sounds pathetic but it’s true! Everyone around me right now is in a relationship. Currently, I feel like an outcast at times. But I’m wrong: it’ll come along soon. And it will be grand. I can feel it. I just have to keep pushing on. Fate will work it all out.

Our fate lives within us. You only have to be brave enough to see it.” – Merida, Brave

I guess I’m waiting for a sign, Merida. Or even a hint. I think I might have gotten one on Monday… Who knows! This is me, and I’m ready to move forward. Finally. 

Like Hercules, I can go the distance. Even if I’m not leaving home, I never give up. At least I’m still breathing. Living. And taking it all one day at a time. 

“Put one foot in front of the other, and soon you’ll be walkin out the door.”

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